Take Interest, Take Notice, Take ME with you.: January 2009

lyrics of the day

Last night I fell in love without you.
I waved goodbye to that heart of mine
Beating solo on your lawn

Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise
In memory of what we used to call in love
And only time will tell if violins will swell
In memory of what we used to call in love
We used to call it love

Last night I fell in love without you
The coup-de-grace that set me off
Would've made for decent fiction

Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise
In memory of what we used to call in love

And only time will tell if violins will swell
In memory of what we used to call in love
We used to call it...

Last night I fell in love without you
The stars at night aren't as big and bright
As you make them out to be

And every aching wound will cauterize and bruise
In memory of what we used to call in love
And only time will tell if violins will swell
In memory of what we used to call in love
In memory of when we used to call it love

GO SPURS GO

- Jan 27, 2009

I've been waiting for Spurs to come to Utah since last year and today is the day!!!! I have to admit i haven't been my normal self as an avid fan since school has taken over my life. BUT I'm still a HUGE fan. I think I'll wear my Spurs jersey to FHE tonight. Only appropriate right? Stupid Lakers ruined spurs winning streak. But don't worry, the Jazz will be defeated.

Labels: poems by rmj - Jan 23, 2009

Your not even that special.

I hate that you made me like you.

Your immature.

Your fake.

Your a liar.

You made me think I'm useless.

You took interest without taking notice or taking me with you.

You used me.

Made me angry.

Then made me realize.

I'm better.

I'm me.

I am who I am tomorrow and the next day and forever

I actually know what I want.

They all said I could do better; they were so right.

You don't deserve me.

Or this letter.

Or those wasted moments I thought of you.

It's the end of the end

I'm over it.

- Jan 22, 2009

Why do things get my down? I should probably ask why I get so frustrated so easily when something goes wrong. This month has been full of disappointments either towards my self or others. The ones that let me down are just proving me right that its harder to trust then. I know what they are capable of , yet i still want them there. I hate it. Having feeling like this. Why are there so many flakes every where, not the snowflakes either.

yadadamean?

Labels: life lessons, random, utah -

Let me Repeat this LOUDLY: I don't need anymore boys that are friends. Reaally i don't. I have the perfect amount already. So what are you waiting for?

Okay so I've realized I really am the queen of procrastination. I win every time. It should make me upset but i doesn't I guess I've learned that thats who I am I can't try to be this Girl that always on top of things because thats just not my style I guess. Haha, wow I'm so waiting for syd to say Thats what she said any moment now. It was funny Chris came over last night, well at 1 am and we just talked about the dumbs in life, and we were talking about all the BEST "thats what she said" jokes. oh so funny so funny.

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yeah. ok. yup. me too

Labels: poems by rmj - Jan 21, 2009

Is it selfish for me to hate being around you or seeing you? Is It ok for me to want you, need you? We are like oil and water. But don't worry, its only getting easier.